| Because I'm a nerd. |
[Thursday
July 19th, 2007
1:30pm] |
& It hasn't been spoiled for me yet.
Good luck to anyone else!
& I'm sorry for those who have had it ruined.
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| I can rant if I want to. |
[Monday
July 16th, 2007
7:12pm] |
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I don't give 2 shits about how you're reception was.
I didn't say shit I said now that we know we get it.
If you weren't so goddamned absorbed in this new set, etc. then what the fuck?
I don't need you telling me how you don't want to fight with me when I'm not trying to fight.
When I'm just stating how Lexa and I waited a good 3 hours for a response.
I think it's more rude to call back and say simply how you can't.
Rather than dicking around and hitting 'end' when I call, or nothing at all.
It's not going to kill us if you say no.
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| Aww Derrick. |
[Friday
July 13th, 2007
1:14am] |
SkarrKrow19: In all reality, I've always had a thing for you and are one of the greater people I miss
SkarrKrow19: sorry if that came off as akward
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| A return to basics. |
[Monday
July 9th, 2007
3:40am] |
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mood |
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A Fire Inside helps me let everything out. Smashing Pumpkins soothe me. Interpol breaks my heart. Rufus Wainwright gives me hope. The Cure makes me fall in love. The Police makes everything feel more pleasant. Pink Floyd is my favorite way to drift off to sleep. Ratatat makes everything just that much better.
I'm really fucking sick of everything.
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[Monday
July 9th, 2007
12:36am] |
You know what irritates me?
Every other thing I say having some kind of sarcastic or snide remark.
Being told to watch my tone. Being laughed at for a few certain things following it.
I probobly had more fun last night than I've had in a while.
[Keep your fuckshit drama out of my fucking journal. kthxbye.]
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[Thursday
July 5th, 2007
4:10pm] |
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It's been since June 11th.
& I don't know why but I miss you everyday.
& I don't want you back right now, but I'm afraid it will be forever.
& I'm afraid I lost a boy who meant this much to me and I've lost a best friend.
& I feel stupid everytime I'm happy your acting the way you used to.
& I'm terrified for the day I know you start fucking around with other girls.
But I know I'm going to suck it up and still come see you this afternoon.
I know you don't read my journals, but sometimes you ought to.
I write you messages and emails and I don't think you've read a single one.
I can't tell it to your face because I'm afraid you're going to not talk to me ever again.
Every time I come over and hang out with you another silly little piece of me breaks and my heart breaks to be around you, and maybe it's for the best, It will hurt me enough to know it won't ever happen again, and I can move on with my life, but, I don't want it to.
But why'd you have to break all my heart
Couldn't you have saved a little bit of it?
Why'd you have to break all my heart?
Couldn't you have saved a minor part?
I could have clipped and saved and planted in the garden
Damn you guess I'll have to get a new one
I'd love to sit and watch you drink
With the reins to the world, gripping a smoke
Vaguely missing link
Don't ever change you hungry little bashful hound
I got the sheep, poor little Bo Peep
Has lost and filed for grounds.
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| Too much. |
[Wednesday
July 4th, 2007
4:34am] |
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mood |
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 blah |
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What part of no don't you understand?
I want a man not a boy who thinks he can,
Boy who thinks he can.
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| April Fools |
[Thursday
June 28th, 2007
4:17am] |
Oh what a shame that your pockets did bleed on st. valentine's
And you sat in a chair
Thinking "boy i'm such a prince!"
Well, life's a train that goes from february on
Day by day
But it's making a stop on april first
And you will believe in love
And all that it's supposed to be
But just until the fish start to smell
And you're struck down by a hammer
Sure, you were swift
When the handsome greek boys dropped by with gifts
You are suave
Thanks to ribbons that open sesame
But in the stars and closer to home, in every planet
It ain't hard for me and dear jo jo to see
So let it all go by
Looking at the sky
Wondering if there's clouds and stuff in hell
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| hahaha omfg. |
[Tuesday
June 26th, 2007
12:50pm] |
Rufus Wainwright:
Top listeners on last.fm: Lyddie92, itastegod, frozent, pr0lepsis, cocainepeaches
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| Pre-sleep meditation. |
[Monday
June 18th, 2007
3:51am] |
I've taken to turning every light off, despite that I'm afraid of the dark.
& Laying in the dark, listening to Rufus Wainwright.
I think, and basically clear out my head of everything.
I'm not going to lie, it's a pretty beautiful feeling.
I feel like I'm not ready to move on, but I am.
It's 4 am and time for my meditation period.
Goodnight.
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[Sunday
June 17th, 2007
11:21am] |
My phone's on vibrate for you
Electroclash is karaoke to
I tried to dance to Britney Spears
I guess I'm getting on in years
My phone's on vibrate for you
God knows what all these new drugs do
I guess to have no more fears
But still I always end up in tears
My phone's on vibrate for you
But still I never ever feel from you
Pinocchio's now a boy who wants to turn
Back into a toy
So call me, call me in the morning
Call me in the night, so call me
Call me anytime you like
My phone's on vibrate for you, for you
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| I think I jinxed the Chris thing. |
[Friday
June 15th, 2007
10:33pm] |
He didn't answer today either, I feel a little crazy if I keep calling.
So, I'm quitting again for the night. He's prolly maccin'.
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[Friday
June 15th, 2007
3:56pm] |
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[Friday
June 15th, 2007
10:09am] |
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[Thursday
June 14th, 2007
6:14am] |
Watching my first Rufus Wainwright videos, I realise, he's a pretty funny guy.
I'll call after a few good deep breaths.
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